No One Else is Taking Note
Hey….how y’all doin…. Its been a hot minute, and I mean a hot minute, since I’ve posted a blog. And part of that is because, lets face it, I’m talking mostly to myself. Besides my sister, I don’t know if anyone else reads these posts. If I’m being honest, its hard to continue to do something social media related when it seems (or its actually a fact) that no one else is taking notice.
Undoubtedly , that seems to be the story of my life lately. I have a blog with no readers, a small business with few customers, an Instagram with almost no followers and lots of YouTube videos with barely any views. On top of that, I have all this art that I think is wonderfully whimsical and amazing and yet not one to look at it.
What’s The Point?
Ok I’m getting off of my “woe is me” soap box. All of these things I’ve mentioned contributed to me wondering if I should even continue on. So, I gave up. I barely created art, stopped posting regularly and began to doubt the probability of my becoming an illustrator. That seed of doubt was planted due to all of the rejection emails I had received for art residencies and fellowships I so enthusiastically applied for. Rejection had a funny way of taking one situation and making us think that we’re unworthy in all situations. I thought “what’s the point”. Embarrassingly, I’m only now figuring this out all these months later.
My Own #1 Fan
The point is, if I don’t keep showing up for myself, how can I expect others to? If I give up, I have no right to be sad when things don’t work out. My biggest supporter (excluding the Most High) should be myself right?
Think of it as selling a product. If you aren’t confident in the product you’re selling when you’re marketing it to customers, do you really think they’ll be inclined to purchase it? Likewise, I have to put my big girl undies on and learn to be my own #1 fan. Also keeping mood in mind, a gloomy, discouraged salesperson is less likely to sell whatever it is they’re merchandising. Likewise, I have to put my big girl undies on and learn to be my own #1 fan.
I WILL Make it Happen
Over these past few months I’ve been doing some true soul-searching…ok it wasn’t that deep. BUT my confidence was, and still is, shot and it made me want to throw in the towel for good. However, during my so-called soul-searching (gotta love that alliteration), I realized that I DO want to become an illustrator. I DO want my art to be my career.
And I WILL make that happen no matter what. I have to put in the work, even when I feel invisible. So welcome to chapter two, I hope you’ll be along for the ride. If you want to stay in touch, drop me a comment below or on Instagram With that being said you never have to be the best just try your best. And remember to create your own whimsy!
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